Monday, July 05, 2004

win some, lose some

Insomnia is one of the worst ways to spend the night. We're talking about the ability to stay awake, coupled with the disability to be productive. So I'm just tossing and turning, well, more of a lying my the side, and then lying on my back-motion, and I can't seem to get the right mood to fall asleep. But thankfully when I sleep I don't dream. I just sorta pass out till the next morning.

But it is this pre-sleep moments that I feel that life is just slowly wasting away. I am starting to write on my blogs as a means of daily closure, but most of the time right about now my brain has already completely stopped functioning altogether. This is some form of information purging motion. If only I could purge memories as well, then perhaps I would stop thinking about the past altogether, and only wonder what the future may be.

I guess I have a pretty good idea where I want it to be, or how I want it to be. Its just that, its so far away, I don't think I'm even in square one yet. That's gotta be a new low in my so-called life.